Epicurus where is your garden now..........?

It occurred to me that the pursuit of pleasure and satisfaction is still inseperable from pain since without one we will not feel the other. The idea of the balance between positive and negatives is in itself pleasing ..order to disorder and vice versa is a universal concept. Equilibria and balance is harmonious and therefor not neutral. Perhaps pleasure itself is not the opposite of pain as an extreme it is that point at which the balance of extremes is pleasing.... stability, harmony, tranquility. So then what is the oppositive of pain in the extreme? Perhaps pleasure itself and equilbrium is in fact another paradigm a different state, a shift...........hmmm.
I had an awful feeling I was close to knowledge and then got lost......... I once thought that when you know everything there was this dreadful irony that you died instantly before you could pass this knowledge on. So here is to living another day still in the paradigm where pain exists so that I can have a lot more pleasure.......before nothing? ...thought for the day.